Friday, May 6, 2011

Big Sister

Dear Isabella,
On April 23, 2011 you became a big sister. I am sure you already know this because I know you were watching down on us with a smile that day. I have already started telling Miss Hannah about her big sister in Heaven. I tell her how much she looks like you. You and her have the same nose, lips and cheeks :) I tell her how special you are and how lucky she is to have a big sister as an angel watching over her.

I know since you are watching over us I can't hide anything from you so I know you have seen mommy get sad a couple times since Hannah has been here. Sometimes it is hard to look at her without thinking about how we missed out on all of this with you. But as you know this hasn't happened often and mommy snaps out of it pretty quick. I know how lucky we are to have her here with us and I will treasure every little moment with her. I know you probably don't like mommy getting sad but sometimes mommy can't help it. I just love and miss you so much that sometimes for a few minutes the emotions can take over me. I try to live my life like you have taught me and I hope during the other minutes and hours of the day I make you proud with how much I am embracing life now. Every moment good and bad is a moment to treasure, a moment you can't ever get back. Thank you for teaching me that and thank you for showing me how to really live and enjoy this life that we are given.

I don't know if you had anything to do with Hannah being sent our way but I like to think that you had something to do with it. I don't know much about Heaven but I like to think that you are watching over us and are like our little guardian angel. In the movies they show an angel on one shoulder and the devil on the other, I like to think of you as my little angel on my shoulder. And I think you are that way with your brothers and sisters too.

Hannah will grow up knowing about her sister, the good angel on her shoulder watching out for her and helping lead her in the right directions in life. She will grow up learning all the lessons you taught us in your short life here on Earth and the lessons you will continue to teach us from Heaven.

There are no words to describe how much mommy misses and loves you. I hope you can feel it, sense it or see it from Heaven.

P.S. Give your Grandpa John a big belated Birthday hug for mommy :)